When life gets you down you know what you gotta do?

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do we swwwiiimmm Swwwwiiiimmmm? -Dori

So I don't really know why just one man's honesty about not being ready to be with someone with an already established family could make me feel so blue. I guess it was because I was totally diggin' this guy. But in trying to find help during my stumble from happiness, I turned to the Lord and the scriptures.

My scripture answer was different than I expected but made me feel so much better. It was found in The Book of Mormon, Another Testamentof Christ, 2 Ne. 29: 7. "Know ye not that there are more nations than one?" In my case I substituted "men" for nations. Sure, the scripture was talking about something completely different, but it was what I needed to shed a different perspective on my hurt heart. No, my heart was not broken, it just felt a little punch.

I also read other scriptures about agency and realized that that no matter how bad I want something to work out with someone, they have their right to make choices, just like me.

To be honest, I really feel that being single sucks right now but rather than focus on that, I am making a better decision to zoom in on my relationship with my children. They are so precious to me and I think that is another reason why I hurt when the guy couldn't accept them too. It's one thing to have a guy run from you, but another to have him scared off by you and your kids.

Being almost 30, divorced, and having 2 children wasn't what I had planned for my life, but that I where I am if I look at a small negative-ish picture. From a different angle I am so much more than a nearly 30-year-old woman who was once married and has two children. I am a daughter of God, who has been blessed with two beautiful and wonderful children who truly love me and I them, I have so many blessings and lots of support from family and friends and I have the right to make choices and I choose to honor womanhood.

I have hope that one day I will find a worthy companion but know that it will be in the Lord's time and I really hate that part of the equation, as in the patient part. Oh well, I can't change that, but I can work on being the best me I can and helping others to do the same.

And a special thanks to my friend Leslie who is simply one amazing lady who took time out her life to talk to me on Sunday. Thanks!

-Karen